Happy Birthday Donghae!

Happy Birthday Donghae!!!

Every year goes by and every time I am proud of the accomplishments you have made. Your endless efforts to be a better person astonishes me. Maybe it's partly because you are constantly being watched by people or maybe you have a set standard for yourself but you always strive to be genuinely  a nice and kind individual. A person whom people can look up to or maybe a person whom you wanted or needed when you were young. Nevertheless, I think loving you has not been for nothing. The more I look at you, the more I listen to your music the more strength I get in order to become a better person than before. The two years that you had left for military duty really put a test on my love for you. And you know what, not once did I falter. Is that what it means to love someone completely/unconditionally? But you don't even know me. And yet I am confessing these thoughts to you.

I thank God every day for bringing you near me. I thank God for letting me be a minuscule part of your life. I thank God for letting me go to your concerts and truly heal myself from life's pains and troubles and just let your voice ease my soul. The more I went to your concerts the more I realized why people love it so much. Of course it is a way to see that you are not just some people on a digital screen but rather a living, breathing soul. That you are human as well. That you have emotions, thoughts and ideas too. And this year, I got to see those parts of you more. I want to be able to go to as many concerts as I can. Your voice frees my soul and I don't want anyone else to do that except you. You bring light and kindness in my life and I don't want that to be taken away. You made me a better person. You made me love people more, you made me believe in people and to trust them. You made me have faith in humanity. You made me love God more and to be more close to Him. I'm a better person because of you. And I don't think there is anyone else out that can do that. I've spent 11 years loving you and this year I realized that my love for you grows more. Everytime I had moments of being thrown far away from you, you always managed to pull me back in with your music. That's the power you have. And it has become so natural to me that if you were to stop one day...I don't think I will be able to survive this world. That scares me the most.

You are someone that I value, love and respect more than myself. And I would know...because I love myself a lot. lol.
The way you are as a person, that is who I love more.

You will always be loved. You will always be thought of. You are definitely not alone.

Thank you for being You. Thank you for choosing this career. Thank you for being human.


Love,
your admirer, and E.L.F.

Welcome back Donghae

Welcome back from the military, Donghae!

Happy birthday to YOU!! 

You finally completed your military service and have started your activities for the new comeback. 

I can't believe two years have gone by..it seems like just yesterday that you were heading off for the military service. I also can't believe that I managed to survive without watching you on T.V. for 2 years. 

I can say that these years were not my best ones. I don't even how to explain how I managed to live without you. I realized how important you are to me. I realized you give me more encouragement and inspiration than any other celebrity figure that I have ever discovered. I didn't know how much a person can effect one's life but now I have begun to see it clearer. I missed you. I wished you were able to update and tell us (fans) about your life in the military. I hoped you weren't hurt and that you were living a normal life. But through out the months you let your fans know how you were via other people, so thank you for that. Thank you for staying healthy Thank you for let us see how you were. Thank you for staying alive. Especially thank you for making music. For choosing to be a singer. For doing all the performances during concerts. Thank you for being you, and always you. Thank you for always loving us (fans) just as much as we love you. Thank you for always helping someone in need and not forgetting about the little people. Thank you for your kind and warm heart. Always stay the way you are. Even if 10, 20, 30 years pass by. 

I will love you for as long as I shall breath and longer. You don't know it but you have given me strength in ways that I didn't know it was possible. I hope to meet you someday and have conversations with you. 

From your Ever Lasting Friend. 

Donghae day

Happy birthday Donghae!!! 

Hope you had a wonderful day!! 

I will forever love you. You are the motivation, inspiration and music in my life. I think without you I wouldn't be able to live so well as I do now. You always gave me a helping hand when needed. You are the voice inside my head telling me that it will be okay and that I should keep moving forward. Listening to your music helps ease the pain and worries of this world. I think your voice and your music is what I was looking for all these years. I just didn't think that you would be a big factor in me becoming a better person. I thank you for being alive and choosing to do this career. You have shown great perserverance and diligence that I highly respect. I look up to you and hopefully you remain to have the courage and faith you need to do what you want in life. 

I'm waiting till the day your military service is finished!! ♡♡♡♡♡ 

Forever love, Donghae. 

D-day

It's another year, another birthday, another day older for Donghae.
He is now 30 years old. The time has come for him to enlist in the mandatory military duty. He will be in the army for 2 years. First 4 weeks are training then he gets sent to the police task force. He will be a conscripted police officer. Can you imagine him as someone upholding the law? I think it would be some thing great to see. He is a very righteous man.
I can't believe it's actually happening. It feels like yesterday I was wondering when Donghae would go to the military.  And that was 6 years ago. Time sure flies.
It has been an adventurous ride going from one album to another, to a photo shoot, to a drama, to a film, or to an endorsement. He has been doing a lot. Recently, he has been writing songs and composing for new albums. His Don't wake me up and Growing Pains songs are beautiful. They are filled with so much emotion that you can feel Donghae's heart.

I'm going to miss him so much. He won't be active in his career so there won't be much of him on T.V. or any new songs. So this is going to be one difficult year. I don't know how I am going to endure it. He has become an enormous part of my life, he has given me so much inspiration and hope that I couldn't ever imagine coming from anyone. I hope I can see him in my dreams. He is the only one that is able to make my monsters in the dark go away. 

동해오빠가 내 옆있어 나는 외롭지안했었다.
그래서 동해오빠, 오리 ELF는 있니가 외롭지안할거에요.
많이목어, 건강하고, 잘다녀와세요. 기다리고영원히사랑할거에요.  <3 

Forever

I have a question to the world. Why do all good things end so abruptly?

Every time there is some thing worth while, and meaningful, it always ends when you least expect it, or rather it doesn't last long. 

So, does that mean we should cherish every moment of it knowing it might be the last? I guess that's where the phrase "cherish every moment like it will be your last" came from. I kind of answered my own question. lol.
But I will still ask the world. 

I wonder if things lasted forever then how would we view the value of life? Would we care more or care less? Personally, I don't think I'd want things to last forever but rather just a little longer than usual. {I have a point to my rambling}

Throughout my life, I have noticed that every time I come across a T.V. show that is truly pure, deep, and insightful without the use of profanity, vulgar language or sexual content...it always seems to be erased from society. This time the show was called Forever (ABC). I do have a list of shows that were cancelled in the past that I loved deeply and were meaningful to watch. For example, Myth Quest, Firefly, and Merlin (BBC). 

I was really sad when they cancelled Merlin because a) I love the Arthurian legend, grew up reading about it, b) it was a very informative and decent show c) I loved the actors that portrayed all the characters, they were doing an amazing job!, And now, Forever was cancelled. Mind you, Forever has its flaws just like every t.v. show in history but I think I found an attachment with it that I can't fully explain with words. Its some thing to know when watched. Maybe it was the dialogue that was said between the two main characters or the interactions they had with each other. Or the mysteries that were to be solved, or the whole idea of living for hundreds of years. How lonely it must have been, how much one can accomplish in their life and what kind of person they might be able to become. Regardless, it was a good show. No profanity and no vulgar language. I'd like to believe there is still a place out there in the world that is safe and where people are still kind and genuinely considerate. 

Anyways, I hope they bring back Forever with all the same cast members. Maybe one day? Here's to wishful thinking *fingers crossed*. 

I am adding a fan-made music video because....I love the two characters! And the maker did a splendid job editing!! I have begun to like the song too. 

Video: Forever (ABC)

Edited by: Maddylovebug12
Source: Youtube
Name: Henry and Jo - My heart is open
Song: Maroon 5 (ft. Gwen Stefani)
All Rights Reserved. do not own anything.





Credits: ABC, Youtube, Maddylovebug12, Maroon 5, 

Strong

Have courage and be kind. 

Recently, I watched the new live-action movie Cinderella. And I must say, I was magically swept away by the enchanted world. The movie was purely splendid. I think the words "pure" and "magical" would describe the movie well. I think the movie was well done, my god the acting portrayed by each actor was on point. Especially from Lily James and Cate Blanchett. Also, the set and costume was truly magnificent. As soon as I saw them, I wanted to be part of that world. Every element of the movie makes one want to live in that lavish environment. And , I should add, the grand ball was beautiful! Overall, I think the movie was well done and I would definitely watch it over and over again :)

I still remember the moment when I watched Cinderella. I was 6 years old, sitting on a futon bed and watching this movie with my family. It was the first Disney movie I had ever seen. I had no idea what was going on except that the stepmother was really mean to Cinderella, I remember thinking it was really unfair to her, and Cinderella's dress was really pretty. To be honest, I never really liked the movie. Mainly because I hated the idea of a family member to be so cruel to their own child and that the past things that happened to Cinderella were so unfair.

Since I watched the live-action movie...there was one thought that I had from the beginning. The movie is filled with grief. I didn't quite see it before because I was younger but now...it makes more sense. First, Cinderella's mother passes, then her father, not to mention Lady Tremaine's former husband passes, then her current husband, and also the Prince's father becomes ill. But amongst all the sadness and grief, there is always positivity and light. I think that is one of the main reasons why I love this movie so much. Personally, in my life, whenever there is turmoil I always think of the positive aspects and hold on to them. So, I know how to relate to Cinderella's personality.
Oh! another reason I loved this movie was because the Prince was a gentlemen, Every time he wanted to do some thing with Cinderella or do some thing for her, he always asked first. He treated her as a person, as someone who has their own mind and their own goals, he respected her, as his equal. And I think that is a very important trait to have as an individual. Whether they are a man or woman, they are treated just as one would like to be treated. I think this aspect is a good reminder for this day and age, where people are easily mistreated and misunderstood. I hope this movie enlightens people.

And lastly, to always stay true to oneself. We see in this movie that regardless of where Cinderella came from and where she ended up going, she was never ashamed or disappointed to be an ordinary girl, or a farm girl/servant girl. She loved the home she was born and raised into and more importantly she was honest to the prince from the beginning. I think being honest and being true to oneself is the greatest gift you can give to, not only, yourself but to the person that you might be able to build a future together.
Know who you are, what you want, and have the courage to achieve it. Then, let a little bit of hope and fate guide your way.

That is what I got out of watching this movie. And I just wanted to write a diary of my thoughts here. And of course, I would love to go to a Grand ball! :D

Plus, I can't stop listening to this song. The music video made by Disney Records is nice!

Sonna Rele - Strong (from Cinderella)


Here are some stills from the Cinderella (2015) movie.

Credits (all rights reserved): Disney, Walt Disney Records,Cinderella, Sonna Rele, DisneyMusicVevo, Youtube, Hollywood Records,  

Ai wa ice ni iru

Love in the Ice

Lately, I can only listen to slow love songs. I have been off K-pop music for about a month, {I wish I could listen to Donghae's music but not yet. Although I have started listening to other K-pop idols music}So...I have been listening to American pop and now I have been listening to my old Japanese pop music. I came across this song. It is not officially Japanese since it is sung by Korean pop band, DBSK. I discovered them back in 2006, To this day I still have faith and hope for all 5 of them to sing on stage. Nevertheless, I discovered this song in 2009 and instantly fell in love. I listened to the Japanese version first and so I love it more than the Korean one. {I could only find a good clip of the Korean version}. This song is filled with immense emotions; sadness, love, longing, loneliness, melancholy and much more. Mostly I think it is filled with sad and longing emotions. Regardless, it sends a very strong feeling of love. It talks about a deep  warm love in the cold winter. As much as I have loved this song I never quite fully understood the references the lyrics were making. Until a week ago. I think it sort of clicked for me. A warm love during the midst of cold winter. A warm kiss as the snow falls or a long walk as two hands are joined. I understand it better now. I guess one would have to fall in love to completely understand the warm gestures. Lucky for me, I had a revelation. lol. 

As I was saying...it is a very lovely song and it's some thing that is definitely on repeat. 

Referring to moments like these. Now that I see them I can understand why people would like scenes like these. 

Credits: Tohodancofighto, Youtube, My Love from another Star, Pinocchio