셍일축하합니다 이동해 오빠!!!

Happy Birthday to the one and only Lee Donghae!!!

Happy Birthday Lee Donghae oppa!!!
I hope you have a beautiful and relaxing day today/tonight. You have worked really long and hard to get where you are, it wasn't easy but you kept going. I admire you for your perseverance and courage and will continue to support for as long as I live. Thank you being a part of this world and I would also like to thank your father for suggesting you to become a singer. I know your father would be really proud of you. There is not a moment that passes by that he is not watching over you and taking care of you. Donghae-ssi, you are not alone, nor will you ever be alone. Your family, your hyungs and your E.L.Fs will be beside you forever. We will give you love and support for as long as you need it. So I hope you enjoy this day and wish you the best of health. :) 

I can't believe its already been a year since his last birthday. Another year has gone by and he has made more accomplishments. Its amazing to see his dreams unravel and become a reality. I'm glad he is able to achieve what he always wanted. I admire this man with all my heart, without him I wouldn't be the person I am today. I wouldn't be happy, grateful nor compassionate towards life or the people around me. He taught me how to be kind and generous, how to care for family, how to express my love, and most of all to love my religion.
I might be thinking highly of him than he really is, but regardless, he genuinely cares for people and wants them to be happy. And in my opinion, there is nothing fake about that.
This year is special for me since I'm currently a 2 hour plane ride away from him. I am in the same timezone, which I would never have thought would come true. Just like Donghae, my dreams are becoming reality one by one. Donghae, I would like to thank you for giving me hope to keep going. Thank you for composing and writing the beautiful music that you do. Some day I hope to return that favour and write you a letter in Korean and give you some thing memorable. :)

Please stay the same as you are always.

동해오빠 사랑합니다! <3 

私の魂は少し黒いです。。。

"There's gotta be a better way for me to say what's on my heart without leaving scars" 
"Can you hear me? when I call your name..."  

This is one of the songs I listened to last year for the longest times. For me this song represents many emotions and many events. For one thing..it reminds of Secret Garden...only because I discovered this song while watching a fan-made music video of the drama.

Whenever I am sentimental I play this song, it brings hope into my life. Its sort of scary how powerful a song can be, to be able to change a person's mood so calmly. Song writing, singing, composing are definitely not an easy job..its admirable of what all the musicians do. I guess most of the songs are based on life experiences and this is one of them.

I've had my fair share of emotions during the past year and this song is a reflection for me. Its hard to explain but it represents a few people from my life. One of them I will probably never see again and the other..well I don't think they will see me the same way ever again.

So I say to those two people...virtually...

"And when you fall apart, Am I the reason for your endless sorrow?"

Joo Won: "In your dreams, what do you see that is so stressful?"
Ra Im: "In my dreams, you are there"
Joo Won: "Are you that unhappy that I am in your dreams?"
Ra Im: "But still...come"

내 말 들려?
당신 이름을 부를 때....

Credits: youtube

How can I fix some thing I cannot see...

Junsu (XIA) is just too awesome! I really love this song. It is so beautifully sung.

Although this song has no relevance in my life, I feel very sentimental towards it. Maybe its cause of how the song is composed or the feelings that are being conveyed. I think there was one part of my life, so far, that I felt a little uncommitted. Not in an player type way but just was not fully committed to the person as I would have expected to be. Mostly, cause I had other priorities to take care of and my feelings for them were not completely there. The other day, one of my friends jokingly said that I am uncommitted. That actually got me thinking and reminded me of my past, nothing serious but just reminisence.

I am a very faithful and committed person but this song just makes me want to be uncommitted. :P
lol the power of music!
I cant help but sing along with Junsu. Oh and I must say Junsu pulls off the blue hair really well!! He is just too darn good looking...
I do not know where this video was shot but it looks very much like Europe or even just Italy. There is some thing pretty and ancient about the shoot location.

Koodos to Junsu for singing in English!! :)

Lyrics:

Its hypnotic
She said I could be uncommitted
She said I’m too much of a player
Come on

Uncommitted
Uncommitted
Uncommitted
Eh, eh

It was all a dream
Reality was far from the same picture
She painted for me
She told me I was the one and I believed
Until the dream dissipated so suddenly

I don’t know why she was so compelled to leave
But something was messin’ with her psychology
I’m confused, she’s sayin’ something’s wrong with me
But how can I fix something I cannot see

She said “You’re not ready
Baby, you’re not ready for the real thing”
She told me that I’d be unfaithful and I cannot believe

She said you can’t be committed
I said baby I dont really get it
She said you’re not the right type only good for one night
You never stay committed to me

How could this be, she’s telling me
I will never let her be my everything (OK)
She said I’m a player and I’d never change
I feel that I’m ready to leave again

She said she could never trust a player like me
But baby that was part of my history
She’s telling me breaking hearts is a part of me
It’s like in my system and it would never leave

She said “You’re not ready
Baby, you’re not ready for the real thing”
She told me that I’d be unfaithful and I cannot believe

She said you can’t be committed
I said baby I dont really get it
She said you’re not the right type only good for one night
You never stay committed to me

She said you can’t be committed
I said baby I dont really get it
She said you’re not the right type only good for one night
You never stay committed to me

Uncommitted

Uncommitted, I’ll never admit it
And maybe I’ll never get it but somehow she could be right
Uncommitted, I’ll never admit it
And maybe I’ll never get it but somehow she could be right

She said you can’t be committed
I said baby I dont really get it
She said you’re not the right type only good for one night
You never stay committed to me

She said you can’t be committed
I said baby I dont really get it
She said you’re not the right type only good for one night
You never stay committed to me

Credits: Kpoplyrics
Youtube

생일을 축하합니다!! Lee Donghae!!!

Saengilchukha habnida,

Saengilchukha habnida,
Saranghae uri Donghae,
Saengilchukha habnida!!!!

Saengilchukhahaeyo!!! Donghae-ssi!!!

It was Donghae's birthday today and I wanted to post some thing in his honour. These days I don't have much time to post things here but I will do my best. When I get some free time, I will definitely post some thing more elaborate for him. He is after all my inspiration and strength to keep me going.

I know I have said this a lot but Thank You so much for staying alive and holding on to your dreams. Thank you God for giving me a chance to discover him and be in love with a man who doesn't even know I exist. lol. Its a sad concept but I'm grateful for it. I didn't know some one that is millions of kilometers away could change me for the better and it has been a wonderful journey so far. I will follow my dreams and keep smiling just as you are, Donghae.

ねしっている? あなたはひとりじゃないよ！
ne, shitteiru? anata wa hitori janai yo!
Did you know? You are not alone!

정말, 감사합니다
jeongmal , gamsahabnida
really, Thank you.

そまった心

Tainted heart

I found this on tumblr. Credit goes to whoever made this or posted this. I decided to post this because its what I have been feeling for the past 2 years. Every thing that is written in it, explains it all. So I don't really feel the need to explain more. I used to hate change, or anything revolving around change but since I have undergone it myself, I feel like I should accept it now. I am officially done trying to force myself to deny the inevitable and just accept whatever comes my way. Losing people along the way is a price I have to pay, but maybe I'll find new people to be with. I just hope that the people that I have near me still accept this change as a part of me, and still care for me. If they don't, then I won't hold it against them. Everybody has their reasons. With all the pain, I have come to severely not care about any thing anymore. I used to be really caring and compassionate but now, most of that has dissipated. I am still caring and compassionate but only to those that actually give a damn.*sighs*

このせいかつはむずかしだよう。。。
이 삶이 힘들요...

Ah~ now that I vented, I feel much better :)

私は私なりに使用される人いないです

Tea is the way to go

Chrysanthemum Tea 

Four weeks ago, I discovered a really healthy tea! I already drink Green Tea and so when I found Chrysanthemum Tea, I was a little hesitant to try it but the lady in the store assured me that it will help with health and so I decided to purchase it. I followed the instructions on brewing it well and then slowly drank it. At first, I wasn't accustomed to the smell or taste of it so I held it in and just drank it, but as time went on, I got used to it. I am quite fond of the taste of the tea. And I might say, this is indeed good for the body. I can feel it refresh my body as it goes down my throat! So I made it my mission to at least drink it once a day, but now I think I might be running low on stock.  I felt it refresh my brain as well and make me more awake/aware. I think this is my caffeine fix! I don't drink coffee and I stopped drinking any carbonated drinks for more than a year and substituted it with tea or juice :)

I was surfing through the net and I ended up finding some information on this tea. I found 10 health benefits for drinking this. I got them from be-well-buzz.com so all credit goes to that website. I shall list them now.

1. Chrysanthemum tea has Vitamin C in which helps ease heaviness in the head during cold and provide relief in sinusitis discomfort. This herbal tea also has antiviral properties and helps relieve congestion in the head which may be caused by viral infection. The heaviness in the head could also be caused due to bacterial pathogenic reaction. Chrysanthemum tea is anti spirochetal in nature thus it is really helpful in easing head congestion.

2. Chrysanthemum tea is naturally caffeine free, hence, it is free from all the side effects of caffeine like anxiety, tension, irritation, nervousness and confusion.

3. Chrysanthemum tea is a natural coolant and helps in lowering the temperature of the body when suffering from fever or even heat stroke. This herbal tea is also helpful in treating pimples and acne. It can also treat discomfort of high temperature such as headache, slight toothache and throbbing nerves in the gums.

4. Chrysanthemum tea is good for the detoxification of the liver and for lowering cholesterol levels.

5. This tea helps in the treatment of coronary artery disease, blocked arteries and even varicose veins.

6. Chrysanthemum tea has stimulating property and helps in alerting the senses and rejuvenating the brain. It stimulates all your senses very quickly and also calms down the nerves.

7. It helps in easing giddiness.

8. Drinking Chrysanthemum tea helps in providing relief in sore throat, redness in the eyes, itchiness in the eyes, dryness in the eyes and dark sport in the eye area.

9. It makes the lungs strong and helps in providing relief in respiratory problems such as shortness of breath.

10. Chrysanthemum tea when taken with lunch or dinner especially with oily foods helps ease digestion.

So all of this explains why my body has been feeling so much better!

Yay for tea!! :D

Credits: bewellbuzz

I Love You

2NE1

They are back!! and they brought a new single! I Love You. It's a mix of electro-pop. I love the beat, its very addicting. The video is so good! YG knows what they are doing. There are so many vibrant colours, their clothes are so pretty. :)

Enjoy! 

When you feel like there’s no way out
Love is the only way

Only be good to me
Only always smile at me
I said oooh, don’t make me jealous
Oooh, don’t make me become obsessed

I’m still scared of love
So make me trust you
I said oooh, don’t make me jealous
Oooh, don’t make me become obsessed

I Love You
I Love You

All day, I keep thinking about you
All day, I just stare at my phone that’s not ringing
Why don’t you know my heart being like this yet?
I still don’t know your heart either

At thoughts of you, I can’t go to sleep at night
I think of you with the moonlight and I confess my heart
Why don’t you know my heart being like this yet?
I still don’t know your heart either

Look at me now

Look at my heart
It’s burning like this
Please hold onto me right now
Before it’s too late eh eh eh eh

I Love You
I Love You

Don’t stop the love song
I will sing for handsome you every day
I say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
I say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Don’t stop the love dance
I want to spend this night with you
I say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
I say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Look at my heart
It’s burning like this
Please hold onto me right now
Before it’s too late eh eh eh eh
We can’t go wrong, bring it back

Don’t play the cat-and-mouse game with me
Let’s become a bit more honest
I said oooh, don’t make me jealous
Oooh, don’t make be become obsessed

I’m curious where you are and what you’re doing
Are you annoyed by me being like this?
I said oooh, don’t make me jealous
Oooh, don’t make be become obsessed

I Love You everyday
Don’t get away
Take me away
I Love You everyday
In everyway
I Love You

Why don’t you know my heart being like this yet?
I still don’t know your heart either

I Love You everyday
Don’t get away
Take me away
I Love You everyday
In everyway
I Love You

Why don’t you know my heart being like this yet?
I still don’t know your heart either

Credits:  Kpoplyrics
Youtube